Monday, April 30, 2012

The Prince Who Wishes To Never Love Again


            Those people, whether it be young or old, who already fulfilled their well-being and lived lives with a sense of contentment, being loved by their partners with their fruits, always say that when your True Great Love comes, You would never love another one in your lifetime because you have already found what you deserve. Many of us listened and dreamed to those wonderful fairy tale beliefs but only a few were given a chance to experience it. And I was not one of them…

            At what I’ve thought is the lowest point of my life, God unexpectedly gave you to me, I suddenly believed that you were the gift that I’ve always been praying for, that you were here to save a miserable man like me. That my heart gathered such Fairy tale thoughts of you and I. But it only turned out to be a make-believe, that I have been only blinded by those inspiring beliefs that blissful people have created to marvel their overjoyed lives over us who only have dreams about it but will never even have the glimpse to bear through it, at what I’ve thought is the greatest story of my life, turned out to be the most grueling chapter of mine. It just became more painful, more disastrous and more agonizing. I have never thought that my life would be at its most lowest point, ever than before. Coz’ you made me think and you made me feel that I could soar up again together with you but why did you leave me from the time that I needed you the most, you just melted and vanished away, leaving no trace, at the hope that I would never find the path to connect myself with you again. Do you still have a heart? Do you know how destructive the feeling of what you’ve done to me is? When the only person you have trusted with the pulse of your heart, shared with the breath of your soul and opened the most sacred part of your life to, abandoned & forsaken you swiftly just like a newly born child left in the streets. I have never been so destroyed like this, it’s as if I am an orphan, begging and pleading just to experience how to be truly loved. Because you were the only left person in my life that I expected to let me have the feeling of being loved and taken considerable care of, as I am with you, that we will pursue our created & built dreams together. But only to know, that what is supposed to be mine were all given to another man... Knowing about this was the most painful thing of all the pains that I have endured just to prove my love for you, but this time, there was no more proving for me because someone in your life is already feeling the opposite of the torturous, piercing & throbbing sentiments of my heart… I expected because you let me, I hoped because you allowed me & I believed because you told me… You told me that I was your “Soulmate” but everything just went to a place called “Forgotten”. I felt so betrayed because I remained so faithful to our vow up to the very end…

            Now, even if I am not included in those “Lucky Ones”, I gained a significant and meaningful lesson from them… And that is… “You don’t earn someone’s love, you should have already deserved it in the first place. We were born in this world to have the right to share love and be shared with love in return…” I am the Prince who wishes to never love again because I already have what I deserve...


- Poetic Prince